#januaryphotoaday Day 4: Sleep

#januaryphotoaday Day 4: Sleep

Oscar sleeps all the time, here is what he is doing right now! #sleep #cute


Why Do People Use Facebook As A Weapon?

We all have that friend who sits on Facebook making snide comments about other peoples’ lives. Why do they do that? Why can’t they just be happy for their friends who are happy?

Yes, I am well aware that people are judgemental and that they all have their own opinions about what I should be doing, but at the end of the day, it is my life. I refuse to sit around and mope but it is absolutely ridiculous that people are so against everything I do.

I met someone. It has made me realise that I do actually deserve to be happy. In a happy, normal, loving relationship that has all the things I have never had before. I am 24, and I am ready to be in that committed relationship. I am happy about where life is going.

Stop judging me, focus on your own life. People in glasshouses shouldn’t throw stones.

Daily Post: Loneliness

So, NaBloPoMO (National Blog Posting Month) are putting up some daily posts and I am going to try to post on here every day for the next 30 days!

Today’s topic: When was the last time you felt really, truly lonely?

It’s a tough question, because I am never alone really. I always have people around or things to do, and so I never get to think about being lonely.

Recently, I lost someone really close to me. He passed away. And that is quite difficult. For the last short while, we’d grown so close and we spent so much time together and when he left me, that was the worst feeling ever. Sometimes life hits you like that though, and he taught me so much about what resilience really means.

He’d been through so much in his 33 years of living and he was able to show me what being resilient really means. He was always championing me to do what I can do and more. He backed me up when I started tackling the issues in my own life. He was my rock. He was there when I was at the bottom of the pile and he helped me back up to the top.

I am angry at him leaving me. And I do feel really alone. Alone. A.L.O.N.E. such a short word with so much meaning behind it.

You know, I have my family and friends that try to do all they can, I love them for doing that, but sometimes, it still feels lonely. No one really understands the sort of loss. The loss that you feel in your heart. And you do actually feel really alone. It’s so hard to explain. So hard to put across exactly how you feel. How it feels to lose someone who meant/means so much to you. Unless you are there living it, you will probably never understand. I wouldn’t wish the emptiness on anyone.

It’s like a void that will never be filled. I know that sounds *so* dramatic, but that is how it feels right now. For me. Right now.

Determined Creature

“…The Mind Gives Up Easily”

Most often, your heart is right.


“Don’t allow your mind to tell your heart what to do. The mind gives up easily”
Paulo Coelho

Read this quote today, and it somehow resonated with me. I am not sure why.

I have been in plenty of situations where I have followed my head and not my heart, you know. The heart really does tell you what to do, but we as humans all have a knack of ignoring this and the mind often wins. We talk ourselves out of doing what is right, and listen to the “logical” side of our heads.

I have done it. We all have. I have witnessed it. As I am sure we all have. You know, things happen and shit hits the fan, but as long as you didn’t regret it at the time, you shouldn’t regret it now. Focus on being in the present and that everything will work out for the better.

Sometimes, the reassurance isn’t enough. But I truly believe that if we all listened to our hearts instead of rationalizing every single choice we make — even the illogical ones — we will be much happier people. To have all of the people in your life tell you that something is wrong means nothing if you believe that you are doing what you think is right. It might turn out that it wasn’t right, but if it made/makes you happy it is the right thing to do right now.

Don’t second guess yourself. Listen to yourself. Stop being your own worst enemy.

Xx Determined Creature xX